Well hello! It's been awhile.

Confession time:
I haven't been running consistently like I said I was going to. Okay, i admitted it and now I feel better.

I ran a second 5k on May 21. Almost exactly a month apart, I ran the first one in 41:14, the second I ran in 36:58. A huge shout out to my friend Sara. The only reason my time improved so much because I was doing everything in my power to keep up with her. I'm signed up for Wicked. In 5 short months I will be running a 5k and I couldn't feel less ready. I ran today and felt like I was going to die. (shout out to my friend Jackie for cheering me on and encouraging me today!) I can feel a change in my brain though, instead of being discouraged by how hard it was I was really proud of myself for getting back out there. Instead of beating myself up I will take the difficulty and try to use it as motivation to improve.

I remember when I first started getting ready for the 5k. I felt like there was absolutely no way possible me, a former way too many a day smoker could possibly run that distance and not either collapse or die. The voice in my head told me every single day that I couldn't do it. That stupid voice was so powerful that I actually started to believe it. By some miracle I proved that voice and myself wrong.

I thought that the voice went away. I know now that it was just muted for a second and it's back. It's like the most annoying TV show on way too loud while you have a migraine and you can't find the remote.  It's telling me different things this time around. Instead of telling me "you can't do this" it's telling me "why bother? You already proved you can do it, the pain and hardwork aren't worth it" It's making crazy and today was my first day back. It's going to be a long road, and to be really honest I don't know if I'm up for it. I am scheduled to run tomorrow at 6am and I'm dreading and looking forward to it all at the same time.

The long term goal is 10k-6.2 miles. My short term goal is 4 miles. I want to be running 4 miles by the end of next week. I would really appreciate any good thoughts and prayers (specifically for strength and determination) on this new journey. I look forward to sharing it with you. :) Thanks for popping by my tiny little corner of the world and visiting with me for a few.
:) Smiles, Hugs, and always Love